God Binds Up the Broken Hearted

The biggest question asked is "Why do women stay in abusive marriages?" This is a question I have asked myself many years now as well. Why do women stay in these crazy, insane, most of the time extremely abusive marriages that goes against sound judge and commonsense. Why? Why do women chose to stay in these marriages? What if the answer isn't so much psychological as it is spiritual? Genesis 3:16 Unto the woman he said, I will greatly multiply thy sorrow and thy conception; in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children ; and thy desire shall be to thy husband , and he shall rule over thee . About 17 years ago, I sat with a Mother who just found out her daughter had wrecked her car, the reason why was what perplexed her.  It seemed her daughter had met a man over the internet and was on her way to the bus station to pick this man up.  The Mother repeated the same, "She knew better. She knew how dangerous of a situation that was. She had hea...

At this time in my life as a new mom and a stay-at-home wife, I was spending a lot of time asking God why and trying to figure out, why was my mother like this? Why was our relationship the way it was?? Why couldn't we have a relationship? I asked God a lot of questions, alot of questions that my Mom asked God, things she didn't understand. As I pondered my life, how I grew up and the things I went through, I started seeing how God had protected me, how he had led me. Those years that I said “I” walked out of the fiery pit, it was actually God that brought me through it. More often than not when I told people about my past, they would be amazed (so to speak) about what I went through, often remarking how “well, I turned out.” Mostly, I just laughed but when it is said to you often enough, you stop and wonder. On one hand, I wonder if people just think that a person can't rise above their circumstances and become something completely ...

The Fall of the next year, 2000, I had my first child. I ended up with a womb infection and mastitis. Two weeks after that I had to get my gull bladder removed. My Mother made the statement to me that “God was smoting me for all my sins”. This is an erroneous statement as God does not smote us for our sins. In fact the opposite is true. God sent His Son (Jesus Christ) to take all our sins. Not one or that days sins but every sin that we have ever committed from the day that we were born to the day we lay dying on our death bed. The idea that we have to keep asking forgiveness for our sins or think that God punishes us for our sins is, in fact, a lie from Satan to keep us in bondage. At this point I was trying to maintain some level of a relationship but I was just getting no where. She disagreed with everything I said and told me everything I said was wrong. She always was provoking me to anger, always was jabbing till she would get...

“Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:” 1 Peter 5:8 This past Fall has reminded me again that the Devil is lurking to destroy us. My Editors son committed suicide in November. Once again I experienced some of the most amazing spiritual attacks on my life ever. It has always seemed that the devil was lapping at my heels. Always trying to destroy me. Jokingly, and maybe not so much, it seems as though there was a grandma way off on my fathers side that put a curse over the family to never live in God's victory or experience it ever. I have fought with this presence my whole, entire life. I know the devil.  I have sat in his presence many times. He slept in just a room over while I was growing up. I was always keenly aware of his presence. It seemed every time that we would pray for Dad things would get worse. His anger would flare, things all around wou...

I would like to say with my moving that I was no longer part of all the drama of my family, but that was not the case. Shortly after moving to Wyoming, my mom and dad had another fight. He had hit her, my brother tried to step in the middle of it and my dad had given him a black eye. My mom decided at this point that she was going to go live with my Dad's sister in Salem. I tried to get her to come Wyoming. I had found her a job there with a place she could stay. Her and my brother would have been safe and there would have been people there that could help her. She wouldn't do it. Instead she determined that she was going to “save” my dad's family and it was going to happening through his sister. Now, I had just come from there. My dad's sisters family was extremely dysfunctional. His sister had four children. The oldest boy was married with two little kids. His wife wanted out. Besides drugs and alcohol, he was extreme...

My grandpa was turning 70 in January of 1999. My mother insisted that we needed to have a birthday party for him. They really did not want to have the birthday. She informed me that I was to make them. I was not into that, so, I was not going to do that. She did most of the work and organization for it, inviting people, mainly old friends. She got her sister-in-law to help her pull all this off, ruling over the fact that my grandpa did NOT want to do this. Of course, when she walked in the door, you would have thought that I was the whore of all whores. One little thing that I did just for me was get my hair done. I had found an excellent stylist in Salem and even went so far as getting some violet red highlights. It was fun.  My mother, of course, was appalled. She set about cleaning my grandparents’ house, utterly appalled at the lack of “cleanliness” which included cleaning out cupboards. She has an issue ...